Sunday, March 27, 2011

Funny Ava...

You never fail to make me laugh! One of the many things I love about you!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

5 going on 15...

When I look at my daughter I see an adorable little 5 year old girl, who often times has a style all her own. Then she will have a conversation with one of her little friends or cousins (who are also 5-7 years old) and I will think she's not 15 yet! Why is that conversation coming out of her mouth! Last night at the dinner table she was talking to her cousin and they were talking about Justin Bieber. Sounds pretty harmless. Then she started talking about how her friends at school think Justin Bieber is soooo hot! Over and over the Bieb hotness was mentioned. I thought I might lose my appetite. Then she declared that her and her friends have Bieber Fever! I almost lost my dinner. Fork down. Appetite gone. Really?!?! Is this my life that I am living. She is five! Five! And she thinks Justin Bieber is hot. Wasn't this phase supposed to come much later in life like when she was at least 12? Or better yet 15? Or 25? I guess not.

Of course this conversation wasn't done yet, she felt the need to include me in the conversation by asking me if "I" thought Justin Bieber was hot! And if I liked the Bieb when I was her age. I politely explained to her that Justin Bieber was not alive when I was her age and that I am almost old enough to be Justin Bieber's Mom. And no I didn't think Justin Bieber was hot because thoughts like that could get me thrown in jail. Not that I have those thoughts about Justin Bieber anyway. The only thoughts I have on him is what does he know about being in love and heartbreak and why is he singing this to little girls who have no idea what this is all about either. Oh and he should cut his hair! :)

Thursday, March 17, 2011

One Week In..

I am one week into following my promise to not eat out for Lent. For me this is huge. Huge I tell ya. And honestly I have to admit I am not struggling with it nearly as much since I have changed my perspective and my attitude on this. I am also noticing that we are eating healthier too and making better food choices. We are eating more fruits and vegetables than we were. And that is always a good thing. Ava isn't even bothered by the fact we are not eating out at McDonald's which is most 5 year olds food of choice for dinner. She was with my sister the other day and they were going to Texas Roadhouse to deliver Girl Scout cookies and they were going to eat afterwards. But I let my sister know we were giving up eating out in honor of Lent so Ava wasn't supposed to eat there. That was a bit of a difficult decision to make because I felt bad not letting Ava go, but I also know it was standing firm in our commitment to God. My sister thought it was dumb that Ava couldn't eat out, but at least she did respect my decision even if she didn't agree with it. I felt good in knowing I am keeping to my commitment to God.

I don't think for one minute we will not ever eat out again, but I hope that after these 40 days are up, we will be more mindful of the eating out and continue on the path of making better choices and we will enjoy eating out when we do because it will not be the "norm" for us. This past week things have come up or happened (both good and bad) and we would have went out to eat to either celebrate or on the bad days because I didn't feel like cooking. So my wallet is loving this no eating out deal I have going on. Life is good and God is so very great! :) One week in and we are still going strong and standing firm in our commitment to God.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

I Want It and I Want It NOW!!!

We want what we want, when we want it. So here it is the end of day 2 of my promise to follow Lent. To give up eating out for the next 40 days. Day 1 I said to myself, well I am not Catholic so I don't really have to follow this. So if I decide to eat out somewhere for dinner then it is ok. I mean really does it even matter...afterall I am not Catholic. Funny how the mind (and perhaps Satan too) tries to mess with our thinking and to try and reason with us to break our promise to God. It doesn't matter which denomination or faith we follow, a promise to God is a promise to God. And that is the plain and simple truth.

I know that if I am going to make it through this time of sacrifice I am going to have to think of this in a whole other way. If I don't, these may be the longest 40 days of my life. When we tell ourselves we cannot have something, we want it even more. That is just how the mind works. So I have to change my way of thinking when it comes to this. So I am looking at it through the eyes of simply being a Christian and thinking of the sacrifices God has made for me and the sacrifices Jesus has made for me. God didn't tell me I couldn't eat out. God has given us the ability to think for ourselves. We all have free-will to do and think as we please. So this morning I decided to change my attitude on this and recognize this is a choice I made. This is something I decided to do for 40 days. I made that choice. I am also looking at this with the mindset of what am I going to gain for doing this as well. I am looking forward to the positive changes this will make in my life. I don't for one minute think this is going to be a walk in the park, but I know this will be a test of my commitment to God. It will also bring me closer to Ava and though her and I are already close, it will reinforce the bond I have with her and any extra quality time I can spend with her is truly a gift. It is a time for us to sit down at the table each night and talk, laugh, and share our day with one another. It will also be a cleansing experience for our bodies. I am intrested in seeing how much better I am going to feel at the end of these 40 days and how this is going to be a change in our lives that is positive.

Oh and as for day 1 and 2...we didn't eat out! Even when my Mom had McDonald's for lunch today I passed up on it and instead made myself some chili. That was an extra $6.00 in my pocket! Onto day 3!

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

I Give Up....

eating out! Well at least for the next 40 days anyway. I have never observed Lent before. Actually I am not even Catholic. But I figure why not give it a try. I don't really know the whole meaning behind Lent, other than the sacrifice part of it. I get that but during these next 40 days I probably should familiarize myself a bit more with what Lent is all about. So I am sure Wikipedia will be my go to resource as I take on this challenge and see if I can actually do this. For as hectic as my life can be or days that are just super stressful and the last thing I want to do is plan or cook dinner, this is a pretty big challenge for me. But since Jesus did sacrifice his life for me, I think I can forgo McDonald's, Pizza Hut, Arby's, Cheddar's, Cracker Barrel, Panera Bread, Sakura, Carlos O'Kelly's....eek!

This just means I have to be more diligent. I have to plan my meals for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. It isn't that I loathe cooking...well most days anyway, but it is easier to grab something on the go or to go to a restaurant and be waited on. That also means no dishes and messes to clean up either. However the flip side of eating out is that it can really cut into the finances too. So after these forty days are up I might see a bit more money in my bank account and that would definitely be an added bonus. Plus, I look forward to Ava spending some time doing a little cooking with me as well. Which will be some nice Mommy and Daughter time. Well I better go look in the freezer and see what is for dinner tonight!